I don’t know who I am just yet because I feel that I am still trying to figure it out. I do know though that I am here for a purpose and that I am seeking for that purpose. I have learned to be the person that I am so far because of my family and my religion as well.
I was born in Los Angeles, California on April 7, 1989. I was raised in Huntington Park and have lived there since I was born. My parents are from El Salvador and so is my entire family. I am Catholic because my parents raised me as a Catholic. I am the eldest of the three children my parents conceived. I was raised by my grandmother because my parents had to work and I needed a babysitter. I have been taught that family is the best thing that you could have in your life and we should always support each other no matter what your relationship with them is.
I feel though that sometimes I want to get away from my family because they just put too much pressure on all of my cousins and me because they want us to better ourselves. I feel that I need to be perfect in order to satisfy my family’s expectations. It sometimes makes me think what if I would have said no to college would they have really been upset. When I look at the comments my family sometimes makes I just don’t bother trying to figure it out.
One experience that I remember is when I entered high school and I got a couple of B’s my dad was not mad but instead of saying good job he said next time do better. He also said that instead of having B’s he wanted to see only A’s on my report card. This brings me to even feel more pressure on myself for having to always get good grades and never get grades less than a B in any of my classes. I feel that I have to be perfect and never show my flaws or weaknesses.
Another thing that I feel I would want to get out of is being able to pick my own Religion. I don’t mind the religion that I have right now but I feel that I always have to do what my parents want me to do. This brings me to not being able to do what I want to do because they are always making me do what they want me to do. I am honestly not a bad person at all and have never shown a sign of weakness. Instead I am always showing that I am a strong person so that my family will be proud of me and see that I could do what to them is in the norm.
A story that I have about this is that my family believes that we should not have any relationship until we have graduated from college because then we will be someone in life. They always tell us girls that men are not important in our life right now and that the only thing we should focus on is going to school and getting good grades. They say that if we were to have a relationship we would not focus on our school work and would pay more attention to our boyfriend. So my family plays a big role in the person that I am today.
I feel that I am a person who is obedient and would never disrespect any person who I would consider to be an elder. I would also have to follow some of the rules that have been taught to me by my family. This would lead me to having to show that I am perfect when in fact I sometimes wish that I could get out of the world that I am in right
Wednesday, April 30, 2008
Trying to Be like Everyone Else
In reading the essays I felt that they each had something important to say that really got me thinking. The essay though that I felt had the most importance to me was "On Being Crippled" by Nancy Mairs. In this essay I felt that what was important was that even though we have some kind of sickness we can still live a normal life. This idea is explained by the author when she describes how she still cooks, washes her clothes, and works.
I feel that this is important for me because I have known people that once they find out that they are sick they lose all hope. I know that all the people act differently toward how they feel, but some have it worse than others. I remember when my aunt found out that she had cancer in her liver and all she felt was depression. She was never the same person again and was always wanting to be lonesome. she also didn't want to eat meat or pasta because she said she was fed up with it.
I now realize that what she was feeling none of us could ever have felt and that we sometimes can't fight our disease. This is why i think that her having a positive attitude is important to me because you cannot just give up. i think that sometimes we need to accept and not be questioning God about why he did this to us.
the narrator gives a good point about still living her normal life. She explains that she does it because of her family and I find that it is a good reason. sometimes we make sacrifices so that our family won't suffer with us. I believe that living a normal life can probably help the sick person as well because they will know that their family supports them.
Living a normal life is important for me because if I had a moment like this then I would do the same. I would live a normal life because in the end we all die.
I feel that this is important for me because I have known people that once they find out that they are sick they lose all hope. I know that all the people act differently toward how they feel, but some have it worse than others. I remember when my aunt found out that she had cancer in her liver and all she felt was depression. She was never the same person again and was always wanting to be lonesome. she also didn't want to eat meat or pasta because she said she was fed up with it.
I now realize that what she was feeling none of us could ever have felt and that we sometimes can't fight our disease. This is why i think that her having a positive attitude is important to me because you cannot just give up. i think that sometimes we need to accept and not be questioning God about why he did this to us.
the narrator gives a good point about still living her normal life. She explains that she does it because of her family and I find that it is a good reason. sometimes we make sacrifices so that our family won't suffer with us. I believe that living a normal life can probably help the sick person as well because they will know that their family supports them.
Living a normal life is important for me because if I had a moment like this then I would do the same. I would live a normal life because in the end we all die.
Friday, April 18, 2008
Adversaries
I think that as we grow up we change the way we are and how we feel. We also change depending n the people we grow up with. Sometimes it affects us in ways that we might not notice. I feel that in reading the story “Adversaries” from The Mee Street Chronicles a book by Frankie Lennon I have noticed a change in the narrator. She has changed a lot because of the people she is growing up with.
The narrator is changing at a really young age because of the way she has been treated by her aunt. I find that she had to change and grow because someone pushed her towards it. I think that it is hard when you have so much pressure put onto you that you feel like there is a point when you just say, “Stop!”
In the story one thing that I noticed that she grew up in was beginning the quest for individuality and identity. I felt this was apparent in a passage where she stands up to her aunt and doesn’t let her whip her. The passage is on page 34 of the book and here is some of it, “No! I shouted. I am not gonna let you whip me!”
I think that even though you are small if someone provokes you then you are going to snap. This has also got me thinking that sometimes people do things that later in life they regret. The narrator will probably never regret it because she felt that she had to do what she did.
Our life experiences help us to grow in life. We change to help ourselves by knowing that we have been able to stand up for ourselves. I think that we have to change in order to find our sense of identity because this is what also helps us to face the problems that we go through in life.
The narrator is changing at a really young age because of the way she has been treated by her aunt. I find that she had to change and grow because someone pushed her towards it. I think that it is hard when you have so much pressure put onto you that you feel like there is a point when you just say, “Stop!”
In the story one thing that I noticed that she grew up in was beginning the quest for individuality and identity. I felt this was apparent in a passage where she stands up to her aunt and doesn’t let her whip her. The passage is on page 34 of the book and here is some of it, “No! I shouted. I am not gonna let you whip me!”
I think that even though you are small if someone provokes you then you are going to snap. This has also got me thinking that sometimes people do things that later in life they regret. The narrator will probably never regret it because she felt that she had to do what she did.
Our life experiences help us to grow in life. We change to help ourselves by knowing that we have been able to stand up for ourselves. I think that we have to change in order to find our sense of identity because this is what also helps us to face the problems that we go through in life.
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